Tonight is my last night at 689 SE Myrtlewood Place. This could be the last time I EVER sleep here. I remember the first night I spent the night in this room... I was 18, it was really hot out, there was no water or electricity yet and I slept on the floor.
I was alone, just as I am now. Thinking of possibilities and the life I had before me...6 years ago to the day I had the same emotions: I am leaving my comfort zone for opportunity and for a big "hell yeah, I did this" experience.
i don't know how to let go. I don't know if i want to let go, but at this point it's inevitable. Plane ticket in hand, training commitment has been signed, suitcase has been packed...this is really going to happen. I can't back out now. Nor do I want to. I can't explain how much I am going to miss my sissy, mommy, daddy, and friends. I NEED to know what it's like to miss what's most important. I NEED to appreciate the life that I'm leaving in Oregon. I don't appreciate it now. I want to though.
What if I fail? What if I crash and burn? Charissa once told me that life is too short for what if's and my grandma and Julie once told me that no matter what happens or what I choose, I am loved and will always be welcomed home with open arms.
My life is good, my life is cool, and my life is dynamic. I will see the places I want to see and I have the experiences I want to have. This is going to be what I make of it. Good or bad. I want to choose good.
Fr. Zach's homily was so appropriate today: The treasures we can take to Heaven: (what I should pack in my suitcase was my interpretation) take the things that put God in your life, not drive him away.
XOXO
About Me
- shipshape2010
- CARIBBEAN, SEA, U.S. Outlying Islands
- I'm the Onboard Fitness Director for the Oasis of the Seas...world's most amazing cruise ship ever built. yes, dreams really DO come true!!! Is also known as a modern day 8th world wonder of the world.I love this life and this experience.
Hello Michelle,
ReplyDeleteOne thing for sure, your chosen adventure will help you find out what is important to you. Once you disregard the fears and get that nailed down, then it’s a matter of developing it to the highest degree you are capable of. With God’s help, of course.
On a more mundane level, I helped a friend move today (Monday). It took 8 hours, and I am reminded once again that moving is among the worst of human activities. Plus, I missed April’s Centergy class again. Hope to make it up on Wednesday.
May the wind fill your sails and blow you in the right direction.
David